happy birthday sarah {me}

so today's my brithday...ya pretty intense. ima whole year older. whoa. lol we wont "disclose" my actual age cause well jus causse haha.

on big holidays like this one i like to think back on where i was exacly a year ago....and exactly a year ago from today i was in missoula...hmm....

ok u kno what? no. im not gonna do this -- the whole "talk about how im FEELING". no. there's no point. im not gonna talk at all and tell u anything because that wont do anything. nothing will change i wont figure out what i want to change what i want why im like this NOTHING

all i want is to sleep...for a very long time....

i dont want to make mistakes anymore. or trust people. or trust someone to make u happy because they will always let u down. in the end. always.

i wish i didn't have a heart. life would be so much simplier.








I am a little bit of loneliness

A little bit of disregard

Handful of complaints but I can’t help the fact that everyone can see these scars

I am what I want you to want what I want you to feel

But it's like no matter what I do, I can't convince you, to just believe this is real

So I let go, watching you, turn your back like you always do

Face away and pretend that I'm not

But I'll be here 'cause you're all that I got

(I can't feel the way I did before)
(Don't turn your back on me)
(I won't be ignored)
(Time won't heal this damage anymore)
(Don't turn your back on me)
(I won't be ignored)

I am a little bit insecure a little unconfident

Cause you don't understand I do what I can but sometimes I don't make sense

I am what you never wanna say but I've never had a doubt

It's like no matter what I do I can't convince you for once just to hear me out

So I let go watching you turn your back like you always do

Face away and pretend that I'm not

But I'll be here 'cause you're all that I've got

(I can't feel the way I did before)
(Don't turn your back on me)
(I won't be ignored)
(Time won't heal this damage anymore)
(Don't turn your back on me)
(I won't be ignored)
(No)
(Hear me out now)
(You're gonna listen to me, like it or not)
(Right now)
(Hear me out now)
(You're gonna listen to me, like it or not)
(Right now)
(I can't feel the way I did before)
(Don't turn your back on me)
(I won't be ignored)

(I can't feel the way I did before)
(Don't turn your back on me)
(I won't be ignored)
(Time won't heal this damage anymore)
(Don't turn your back on me)
(I won't be ignored)

I can't feel

Don't turn your back on me

I won't be ignored

Time won't heal

Don't turn your back on me

I won't be ignored


{Faint} by Linkin Park