i'm baaaackkkK!!!! told you so ;)

supppppp :)

okay so yep i'm back. back being......back-y.
and listening to Heaven in my Ears haha Breaking Benjamin's new album is reallyyyy good => i hav to listen to it for the newspaper -- which i am on & which is called The SHACK [[haha yeeeeahhh i kno what ur thinking. shut it]]], but ya i'm doing an album & movie review for this next issue :) 's gonna be sweeet.

*sighhh*

well today was an okay day.....eh. i'm having stupid friend/boy troubles, but i don't really wanna talk about it because i'd rather just forget it all. and not like..."dwell". seriously you need to kno what kind of people r worth stressing over and the kind who don't matter ~ the ones who fade out as easily as they fade in. barely 2 week friendships?? haha ya those r the best. moving on :)

^^ that boy issues is pretty much all that's making me "blahh"-ish. but when shit like that happens here, it makes me miss my best friend all over again....it's kinda like i cling to that security because i kno i can trust him, above anyone else.

do you believe in "meant to be"?

i do sometimes.....when i always end up back where i started. i feel okay tho about all of this. as long as i hav him, i can get thru anything. well fuck. when you read that it doesn't exactly sound like a good thing does it? haha well it's hard to explain....you don't need to kno the little details :)

BB is all tourtured-soul-y....and their music is kind of my default. but i'm not in the mood for them. i need -- alive. music that makes no sense, has no meaning, no depth, that just IS. and sounds good. lol i'll get me some of that later tho. cause right now -- if i'm gonna write -- which i am, i need deep tourtured-soul-y. to bring out the best in me. and not repress haha alright sounds goooood. i will post my literary magick later =]]

love,
S [[or Pepper. idk that was my used-to-be nickname.....to use it still or not??? i'll think it over]]

byeeeeebye