Believe

....so give me something to believe, cause i am living just to breathe, and i need something more...to keep on breathing for...so give me something to believe....

~Believe by The Bravery



*sigh*

life.

it's quite something, isn't it?


[[[[[[quite a bitch]]]]]]]

but
music.

my refuge...my sanity... <3

try to give u warning but everyone ignores me
told u everything loud and clear
but nobody's listening

call to u so clearly, but u don't want to hear me
told u everything loud and clear

but no body's listening

i got a

heart full of pain

head full of stress

handful of anger held in my chest


~Nobody's Listening by Linkin Park



would she hear me, if i called her name? would she hold me if she knew my shame?

....ur tears dont fall they crash around me
her conscience calls the guilty to come home
ur tears don't fall they crash around me
her conscience calls the guilty to come home

~Tears Don't Fall by Bullet For My Valentine {band = fricckkkin awesome = PERFECT for today haahha ;p}



if u havent picked up the hint these lyrics r like.....my own words. they'r my thoughts and what's goin on in my head....that's how music works for me -- it takes messed up shit and turns it into pretty sound haha and there u have it - melodies, symphanies, beats, rests ~ all that good stuff


oo i have recently decided that i'm changing the name of my character [in Angel], Leila's name to................[dude, i am so going to become deaf one day hahah -- too loud music]

her new name is.......... Lili {pronounced Lilly but spelled cooler. o yes}


if u wanna get out alive.....hold on for ur life. if u wanna get out alive...hold on for ur life. if u wanna get out alive, hold on for ur life.......if i stay it won't be long till im burning on the inside. if i go i can only hope that ill make it to the other side....if i go...and if i go
^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
~Get Out Alive by Three Days Grace

sorry! i HAD to.... :D haha




seems like ur wanting me to stay.....but my dreams would surely waste away...and i still have nowhere else to go....so i wait for u to...take me al the way...take me all the way

PUSH ME UNDER
PULL ME FARTHER

TAKE ME ALL THE WAY
TAKE ME ALL THE WAY

PUSH ME UNDER
PULL ME FARTHER

TAKE ME ALL THE WAY
TAKE ME ALL THE WAY

~Take Me Under by Three Days Grace



dang it. sorry again...this playlist is addictive.

uhg...my neck hurts...feels like i got this knot. dude wtf. i need to sleep....gosh and i was gonna talk bout deep important philosophical stuff! :(
o well...tomo maybe..if im not o so superbusy and/or sleeping lotsss. hehe

ciao <3

sarah*jane


'ay, wait up. since it's valentines day i should tell y'allz y i hate valentines. u kno now that im thinkin back to it this is a stupid reason to hate a holiday but then seriously it sucks when im dating someone AND just as much when im single -- so it's not just the ex-bf factor. nahnah

last year's valentines day -- was on a thursday i believe.....and from that day till that sunday = the worst weekend of my life. cause i remember it vividly and the pain and all the fun adolescent shit. ha good times, man.
that was the weekend when the boy who was my first boyfriend & first "love" broke up with me because [as i would later find out, when we got back together a few months later -- ya don't ask] he had "fallen out of love with me".

hey girls out there, a word of advice. don't date a player, even if he is a "good guy" and "sweet" and a "good friend" but a man whore, bottom line -- looking at him from a girlfriend perspective. he'll fuck u up and ull never think of "love" the same way again.
that's y i like movies - they show u what everyone in this world wants love to actaully be like. but then again what am i saying? everything i say bout love is jack. me and my tainted heart....so all you need is love, Beatles? that is what u say after all. hmmm well i used to believe that.....and when the day comes around that i do again --- well ill still hate [or maybe just not care bout/dislike] valentine's day ~ but for different reasons. like pink is ew. >>>> hahah

byebye :)
xoxo