i wish everyone was loved tonight and somehow stop this endless fight ~ just a chance that maybe we'll find better days.... <3

u kno what an amazing song?

Better Days by The Goo Goo Dolls

*sigh*
that song keeps me sane,,,every time when im feel myself loosing my grip on myself...my "ok"-ness....i listen to it, and it makes me better. it gives me that renewed sense of hope -- to keep going. to keep looking for whatever it is im looking or...longing to find....or feel. some sense of pure...security...sureness. unwavering. however one finds something like that. something in this world.

i fidn that sometimes...lately, its harder for me to brethe and y is that? it comes and it goes....anxiety maybe. possibly. something....

this year has been a rollercoaster for me. so many places so many people so many emotions changing and forever staying the same

people i meet. people i loose. people i see for who they really are. am i wrapped up in this world? i try not to...try to distance myself from the.....from the shit. that bad shit. but i always somehow managed to find some anyways. but that's alright. i like to think that even when i feel like im suffering im surviving too because i havent given up yet. im still standing and breathing and moving and living. one day at a time. everything has to get better eventually.....doesnt it?

one day i'll figure it out....i hope :)

love <3
sarah*jane